Why does
anyone want to write books?
There’s
no clear answer, and probably every single author has a slightly different
motive. But mine are common enough, I expect, and will sound familiar to most.
The
first and simple answer is – I write because I have to. Characters, stories,
plots and situations shout at me from dreams, thoughts, and imagination. My
head is never free of ideas for writing.
Second
answer – because I love it. But there are times when I am so heartily depressed
by it, I wonder why I haven’t ever given up. Rejections and failures certainly
are the major snag, but there are also times during the writing when the book
seems to fade away, I lose confidence and I am convinced I’m writing rubbish.
And it’s damned hard work. Hard work has never frightened me (writing is
certainly better than scrubbing floors) but it can be mentally exhausting.
Now what
about the more interesting reasons? Well, escapism is my main reason for
reading, and writing is an even more satisfying form of escapism. After all,
everyday life can be very dull. Working out the bills and making shopping lists
– cornflakes or porridge – wow – how exciting is that? Washing the dishes,
phoning up to complain about your internet connection, wondering if you are
actually the same person as that ragged old wrinkled woman staring back at you
from the mirror. If you don’t want to escape that for a little while, then
you’re a masochist. Sometimes we are criticised for escapism, as if this is a
form of refusing to face real life. But if you’re trapped in a Japanese
Prisoner-of-War camp, then escape is plain common sense and you’d be called a
hero.
Yes,
reading is a beautiful form of escapism. You can read a book in a week – or
even a day. But few authors can WRITE a book in less than three months. It
usually takes me six. Escapism of the highest value and more fulfilling than
the type you can’t control. I disappear into the worlds I create, and my
characters become real to me. They communicate with me, awake and sleeping. I
certainly grow to love them.
Writing
is also wildly cathartic. I’m no Stephen King or J.R.R. Tolkien, more’s the
pity! But I do often put disturbing scenarios and highly unpleasant killers
into my books. This, I assure you, is not because I wallow in murder or horror.
It is for the exact opposite reason. Writing about something takes away the
fear of it, and stops unwanted thoughts creeping into my dreams. The world can
be abhorrent, but the vile things some people do, and the bitter misery we
encounter can all be a little diminished by taking these disgusting events by
the scruff of their necks, and writing about them.
Some
years ago a monstrous serial killer and his even more pitiless wife were
arrested in Gloucester, a part of England very near where I was born and grew
up. This was Fred and Rosemary West, and in horror and disgust I listened to
the news broadcasts of what they had done, including the torture and murder of
some of their own children. I was in tears for days. One of their poor
daughters, later killed, had me weeping in agony even in my dreams. How does a
killer’s mind work? How can someone commit such crimes? What is the motivation
behind sadism?
The book
I have just finished (IF WHEN) is not yet published, but will be on Amazon as
soon as it is edited and finds its cover. Here I search the meaning behind such
vile wickedness, contrasted with the love of two mature and delightful people.
I found it upsetting at times, but intensely cathartic.
I’m not
saying everyone should read such things. I’m just saying it honestly helps me
to write about them. The shadows seem to creep away.
So I’m
an author. Big deal. What else! Well, I am a highly enthusiastic
time-traveller. Now there’s another whole glorious reason for being an author.
It’s a form of escapism again of course, but it brings it’s own satisfaction,
for research can be as fulfilling as the book you eventually write once you
know the accuracy of your setting.
Please
be patient with authors. We all have our failures, but we all work very hard to
succeed.
© Barbara Gaskell Denvil
© Barbara Gaskell Denvil
Barbara Gaskell Denvil is a multi-award winning author of historical fiction, mystery, suspense and fantasy. Some of her books combine all of these and others only a few.
Having been born into a literary family where book shelves filled every room, she grew up assuming that writing would be her career. She began writing when she was extremely young and then went to work in the British Museum Library, with ancient folios and manuscripts. This cemented her love of both literature and history. Moving on to work in traditional publishing, scripting, reviewing, editing and publishing many articles and short stories.
Her books now alternate between fantasy and historical fiction, drama, mystery, adventure and romance, with a passion for medieval settings and historical accuracy.
Miss Gaskell Denvil's work has been traditionally published by Simon & Schuster, but she now favours self-publishing as it gives the huge satisfaction of individual control. And personal choice of genre and artistic inspiration.
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What a lovely article. And yes, I guess we all have different reasons. I was so ill for about twenty years, that I felt as though I'd nearly disappeared. As my health improved, I suddenly discovered something I'd never known before - I could write. And I loved it.
ReplyDeleteFor me, it's not just mentally tiring but physically exhausting. As well as the ME, I have scoliosis, and although I can do much of the first draft lying down using my iPad, once the editing gets serious and it's time to format, I have to use the PC. And it hurts. A lot. But suddenly, I've gone from being almost a background ghost whom hardly anyone knows is there to having my books read in America as well as the UK, and a sprinkling in other countries. Not in the hundreds, but certainly a reasonable amount. And being invited to do the odd book signing. This is the stuff of fairytales.
I don't know for how many years I'll be able to keep it up, but whiles it lasts, I'm going to drain it to the dregs.
I so admire you Loretta and I am delghted that your books are doing well. Deservedly so!
DeleteAw, thank you, Helen. You made me blush. Bless you.
DeleteI replied before, but it doesn't seem to have printed. Sorry about that. I shall send another reply here - I was extremely touched by your comment and wish you tremendous luck in the future, which you clearly deserve. Many truly successful authors and artists have suffered terrible challenges, and this invariably seems to make them stronger and brings out the wonderful creative talent within. I believe this has happened to you, and is the beginning of you discovering your own worth. What a great beginning to success to come. It has already started - and will go on and on. I wish you a gorgeous future.
DeleteOh, bless you, Barbara. How kind of you. Thank you so much for your lovely encouraging words. You've made me feel all glowy.
DeleteI so agree, such a lovely article. Well done, Miss Gaskell Denvil!!!
ReplyDelete100% I second that!
DeleteYou are most kind, thankls so much
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